drink me instead (for ryan)

i'm finally home to find your bones
like a dropped receiver hung from its phone
the devil used the valves of your heart
to play blindfolded darts

all the furniture is pie shaped
all the furniture has been rearranged
like a bull's eye wandering off
we throw all our coins to hopeless lost causes
like a bulls eyes wandering off
we throw all our coins to hopeless,
hopeless lost causes

i'm the mark of the maker
the maker's kindest mark
engraving your paper
probing into your dark

do me a favor
don't piss on my bark
keep your lucid eyes
keep your lucid

throw out my back
rip my best skirt
you were sober when i left
the hot face of your furnace

tracing your closed eyes
the tilt of your skull's lead
the sogginess of your holy bread
i climbed inside your bottle
hoping you'd drink me instead

you'd pass out just the same
from love's shot to your brain
you'd pass out just the same
from love's shot to your brain

i'm the mark of the maker
the maker's kindest mark
engraving your paper
probing into your dark

do me a favor
don't piss on my bark
keep your lucid eyes
keep your lucid

elbows and toast

going home with the sofa ghost
escorting me home like a crumbling coast
your path smells like the towns proud roast
locking elbows, they lift a toast

begging for mercy, bleeding out the nose
bar code forhead, sent like the king's post
no one's laughing at your jokes
no no one's laughing at your jokes

gold nugget in your hand, which do you value most?
the savvy satisfaction of sparkling shapes
or the sages see-through prose?

walking home with the sofa ghost
escorting me home like a crumbling coast
its The One i make love to most
love to most
elbows and toast

chaperone

light your cigarette to the east
and blow your lung in my direction
surfacing on your skin
like an unidentified infection

rusting your cheeks red like
an unplanned erection
i'm all over
and i hope

you've licked every bottle
and found the same taste
you're rolled and rebounded
and found it a waste
because you don't know what you've got here
no you don't know what you've got here

there are two warm bones strumming guitars
i climbed into your bed this morning
a few hours after you collapsed
in from the bar sober

and wearing the monks robes
i slipped my hand under your clothes
and reached in and took hold
and i hope you know
i hope you know
it's not everyday
that frames of flesh
burn open and glow

there's a kind force playing chaperone
binding our wrists
sucking out toes
you know It knows
you know we know
we know You know
we show it

catch this cloud

papa gonna make you proud
give the guys at the station
something to talk about

momma's gonna cry out loud
give the ladies at church
something to chirp about

brother gonna catch this cloud
the locker room boys'll
snap their towels around

and with the royalties
we'll live like royalty
buy an elephant and take it town
quiet our minds, stop roaming the streets
earn emerald eyes for our cardboard crowns

papa gonna make you proud
your little girl's gonna grow up
and find her place in the crowd
giving sound
we scrub the blood off the floors
when no one's around

the wind picks up
the sky breathes in
guard your feet
and plant your ground

hold up your wishes
to the blinding sun
a golden light
to match you gown

lord i'm gonna make you proud
give the stars in your heavens
something to blink about
lord, gonna catch this cloud

empty

speakers by the pillow
in bed
boy cut panties
cigarette bread

wishing i were there
with your log cabin back
tracing the crack
the right track sac

strip softly in a
s cracked mirror i
want to show
you
want to shed this fear
i, i, i,

buried under
like a dark disease
in remission
i give you permission
i give you permission
open me up

speakers by the window
monoxide bread
the butcher finds the gut
the monastic her head

empty

$1000 bill

another day. a crusted brick on my back.
dust off the tv. restock the towel rack.
scrub down toilet. mount a round roll.
theseare the hours of my life. pay. pay roll.

squeegy the mirror, strip down the bed
check for the bible, give pencils their led
lift the couch cushions. vacuum and find
a tv remote, a constellation of dimes

a chewed pen cap, a lint covered pill
a squished up gum wrapper a $1000 bill
a $1000 bill, a $1000 bill,
a $1000 bill, a $1000 bill!
now i've something to write in my will

where are my feet
i can't feel my feel
nothing below my hips
nothing above my heels

dump out the ashtrays, turn out the lights
lock the door, click, click goodnight
to this life

soft swinging rainbows, sunny fingers of light
dump out my ashes, click, click goodnight

water machines

on the afternoon sky's watercolor screen
hang the maluable white bodies of water machines
they protect from all infections like unseen spleens
wiping open the eyes, rubbing the rust clean

invest in love, walking through the ghetto
broken glass and tied up doves
there's enough turn around time for all of us
flicking off false alarms like burnt up kitchen gloves

on the afternoon sky's watercolor screen
hang the maluable white bodies of water machines
they protect from all infections like unseen spleens
wipe open your eye child, and leave the rest to Me

love lands

i'm perched up on the wall
that you're slamming your head against
the bricks of pain and pleasure
now speak in present tense
the workings of this world
have cleared their throats
to speak their sense
blood dripping from your head
congeils into an observation bench

did you think i would leave you
after jumping the high fence
there's an orchard on the other side
where the fruits have no dents

did you think i'd forget you
after the sweet sweat for the quench
lemons, pits and apricots
the climax of spring's scent

we're going over
closer
i'll help you over
two hands

we're going over
closer
unconditional
love lands